I’ve been working on a project at work this past week that’s been very time consuming. It’s a very exciting project but it’s very labor intensive. It’s also the very beginning of a pretty big undertaking. While it’s a lot of hard work, it’s actually a lot of fun as well. There are moments when I catch myself thinking “I can’t believe I get paid to do this.” I have big dreams for this endeavor. But right now, I’m at mile one of a marathon. I might even still be at the starting gate waiting for the gun to go off. Do they use guns at marathons? I’ve never actually run a marathon so I’m not really sure how it goes. Which brings me back to my project. I’m in new territory for this project. I like challenges. I like the excitement and the thrill of figuring something out for the first time. So this past week has been a great week at work, but at times I’ve caught myself second guessing my efforts, wondering if all this work will be good enough. I have this perfect plan in my head of how it will turn out and a voice inside of me tells me that there’s no way I can pull it off.
And then I remembered a quote that I heard from an author and blogger whom I admire greatly.
That’s when I realized it was going to be okay. I’m just at the beginning of my project. There are still some rough edges to be smoothed out. I’m in for some bumps and bruises along the way. But I’m not at my middle yet. I have to work to get my project to its middle. If I give up now, it will remain stranded at the starting line, with no real effort given behind it to improve it and modify it to its middle. When I remember this, the anxiety about the project lessons and the joy that comes from the work returns.
It’s only the beginning.